英语翻译

I suddenly have the freedom,did not expect so many years is still the same dedication.
Do not ask me why the sudden need freedom,I was just hovering between courage and cowardice.
Looked up the sky,as if it is still the same blue,but inexplicably,has felt a trace of hollow.
If there is the existence of God,I will let him give me strength.To break the dread,move forward!