英语翻译

我现在觉得很麻木,压力很大.很想舍弃一切,就这样离开.但是我逃不掉.我必须走下,去完成我的梦想,尽管我为此付出沉痛的代价.爱情就算了,那是奢侈的,我要不起.对不起,我不是故意逃避,而是害怕上爱.谢谢你们对我的爱,我会放在心里.
I feel numbed with a lot of pressure right now.I want to give away
everything and go away,but I can’t escape.I have to go on to fulfill my
dream although I pay a painful price for it.As for love,that is too luxury
for me and I can’t afford it,so I have to forget it.I’m sorry that I don’t mean
to deliberately escape.But I fear of being loved.Thank you for your love,
which I will keep in my mind.